Mexico is my Vienna

Daydream delusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh, baby, with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wine glass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweetcakes and milk shakes
I am a delusion angel
I’m a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like branches in the river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I carry you
You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

– Poet in the streets of Vienna, Before Sunrise

∞ ∞ ∞

Oh…what a trip to have seen this movie all over again! (saw it back to back last night)

Before Sunrise, circa 1995

I went to Paris when I was 23…10 days on a December.
(It was cold and beautiful)

When I returned to Mexico I broke free from the man’s chains and went off to serve the Mother.
And then I went on an introductory trip to the Magic of Life…

Chamela @ 23

After having been purged of every possible piece of baggage I had
   miles of hitch-hiking,
       and days of walking,
   sitting under the Sun-light,
Our paths crossed.
[ CI & I ]

There, deep in the womb of the desert
Walking in powdery paths under the Moon-light,
   We healed each other.
Beside the Fire, as our coffee & cream dreams spiraled into the Sky
I felt our roots penetrate the ground
Deep into the Earth they went,
   underneath the warmth of our hands holding on to one another’s vision.

There was no fear of the Sun rising…
A complete surrender to the Moon
   and the moments of our Hearts beating as One.

The next day you continued with your journey
The same was true for me…
But from your world to my world 
     – you wrote!
Your words caressed my seeking Soul
   and stirred in me a longing so deep,
that 3 moons in…
With the blessing of Angels, Wizards and the Songs of the Sea
   we drew spirals in the sand of Destiny’s garden
        ~ Blessed Union of Souls ~

What happened next is history
What will happen later is a mystery
Lets keep on writing this story…
Dance with me.


How do I expand my Joy & Love?

By filling up your self-love gas-tank, so you are happy and have more love to give…that’s how.
Yup! I mean…how else does One expand, right? 😀
(you eat more, you get bigger…you love yourself more, you have more love to give! same banana)

I engaged in a lot of self-care/self-love this past moon…
I went to the salon, on dates (the Skype & chai type), checked off stuff from my wishlist from LAST YEAR, went to a Yoga class, etc…
Now I know the things I mentioned are probably pretty normal occurrences for some…but I’m a working co-parent (versus single mom) that lives with her daughter in their own apartment, with no yaya/maid, ok?
Not that I am complaining…I LOVE our life!!! But sometimes scheduling in things like going to the salon or getting a massage can get complicated…

Things got even more interesting when Little A left for Papi-land, and even more so when I took a break from work!
You’d think I would pull my hair out not knowing what to do with all that free time…I almost did. 🙂 But I busied myself with work (before I actually went on vaca)…and then when I finally took a much needed respite…I busied myself with my Work in the World. ❤

First things first…go to a gig. 😀
I didn’t even make it to the bar though. (hahaha!) Half a beer in as I walked down the boardwalk, I was already woozy and decided against going alá 24/7-hardcore-party days. Instead, I just sat by the water’s edge, listened to the same old cover band, and when I was done with my drink…hit it home. Definitely not what I imagined my live-music-night would look like…but, very fulfilling all the same.

Next, catch up with homework time.
Aside from being a full-time working momma with no nana, I also have this thing for continuing education (currently enrolled in a Sacred Business program, a Conscious Parenting course, plus all other required reading for Yoga, etc etc).
Suddenly having 2 daughters (+ co-parent) around for a week was fun, but it completely changed the daily routine for a week!
So…a little bit of hustle was in order…but, I was still easy on myself. Performance-level was ideal, but no pressure to be perfect. This is how you ace the University of Life.

Lastly, increase oxytocin levels through self-pampering + girl-bonding moments.

I cannot stress enough how VERY IMPORTANT this is!
Oxytocin is a feel-good hormone in both males and females, and basically it is what your body secretes when you have bonding moments with friends/family, or even with just yourself. (Wiki will tell you more)
I am over-the-moon thankful for my girl-time last month…but giving myself the time + space + resources to tend to just me was so very healing!
Some days I did nothing, other 
days I sweat it out; some nights I had ice-cream for dinner, a couple of times I bought stuff I wanted (without necessarily needing it)…but whatever my Heart desired at that point – I gave it to myself…and I am so So SO soOOo grateful that I could!!!

I am counting the days till Anantita comes back…first because I miss her so, but also because I know days like these won’t last forever.

I hope every mom (dad, and non-parents too) gets to have at least of semblance of what I’ve been living for the past 21 days…even if it’s just by taking a 30-minute hot shower, a 5-minute massage, a long, full breath…

May all beings be happy…may all beings be loved…may all beings be free.
~ Namaste ~

(June 27-July 24)          
Totem animal: Turtle
1. Share your expansive thoughts
2. Spread the Love by pampering yourself first – get a rad new do, look great and feel even better 🙂
3. Be there for a special someone’s big moment – Kuya’s prepa graduation!!!
4. Tell the world what you’re proud of – posted pics of grad night w/ new look on FB

5. Approach old wounds with reverence, and learn/re-learn the lessons from that experience (NO SHAME/DISDAIN)
6. Now is The Moment of power
7. REMINDER: Tat Tvam Asi (You are That)
8. Ask, and you shall receive
9. Value your alone time
10. Even if it hurt a bit, be grateful you’ve reclaimed your Time & Space
11. Catch up with a SSS (Super Soul Sister) – Skype date with Tala
12. Keep on upping oxytocin levels – chai latte date with a Momma Goddess
13. (just because doors were closed right at your nose)…don’t get snotty…get creative! 🙂
14. Discharge gracefully…or not :S
15. Be, with Family  – E + Citlali arrive ❤
16. Do every little thing from the Heart (THAT is service)
17. Let Love in ❤
18. Breathe…Respond…Re-create
19. Be who you were born to be – cumple-kin (red planetary skywalker day)
20. To receive Love & Support, love and support
21. Relish Family time – little A left for Gto with E + Lali
22. Know what makes you ~ turn on ~ tune in ~ drop out ~ (and engage it)
23. Sleep like a baby on its birthday
24. Fill up the well before sharing the water – before you give, you must receive
25. Re-connect, circle in
26. Make time for Momma Goddess bonding moments…it opens your Heart to the flow – chai latte date with S…afterwards, saw an abandoned/almost lifeless kitty and brought it home 🙂
27. Indulge your desires – hot stone massage from 2012 wishlist…check! (finally!!!)
28. Exert an extra effort to be of Service – 2 Yoga classes in 1 day = sore ass + legs (yey me)

8th Anniversary in PV

8 years ago today, I landed on these shores.
~ 8 ~
I can’t believe it’s been 8 full rings already! A whole double loop of years since I left the land of my birth and flew in to this magical port…
Puerto Vallarta. (Its tag line should be “te atrapa”)
How much has One changed since…
From the clueless, 24/7-partying Uni-grad (UPLB, repreZENt!)
  to the lovestruck maiden-goddess
     then Buddha-flying it (ie. butterfly-ing) to Yogini-Mom…
I honor this journey
– the adventures,
and moments of silence…
8 years!!!
I think it’s about time to go Home, no?
Pay homage
to The Roots, and The Voyage
Close this cycle and start a new chapter…
I’m curious to see where the next bundle will unfold.J (Lead me to new landscapes, Goddess!)
8 years ago today…
The next day we went to see a movie to celebrate Mavis’ 13th…we saw the Fantastic Four.
Funny…yesterday they showed it on local TV.
It’s as if things are naturally circling back to where they began and now everything is repeating itself, only this time it’s Level 2 (or watered down by the passing of days, as in the case of silverscreen-to-telly for that fateful movie).
So if I were to do this whole Mexican experience all over again…what would I do?
Ok, so maybe not “do it all over again”
Instead…how would I go about it, now that I am in Level 2?
Coincidentally I scheduled a gyne appointment today…she was happy to see how lovely Yoni is looking these days.J (woohoo!!!)
What a great way to celebrate my 8th year here!
Because come to think of it, much of this journey has been about discovering my sexuality, my passions, my (He)art, my Self…
I got my first job here
Traveled miles with nothing but the clothes on my back
Found Love
Chose Love
Was born a Mother
Yolked it up with Yoga…
So how would I go about it again?
I would honor the Goddess within, every step of the way.
May It Be So.